So very much done today. A blur, flurry of randomized tasks, along with all the high-priority items. With this, I managed to meet with several local bloggers. Now, though, eveningās finality creeps in. Even with my pleasing productivity, I still agonize about all thatās not done. Silly, perhaps, but thatā me. Hung up on whatās lacking, what I havenāt accomplished. Too easy to forget whatās done, where success lay.
Driving along in Kirkland , home of the modern yuppie, Iām passed by a new Mercedes. Lovely, silver, shiny, new, bling-bling; a part of me loaded with insecurity twinges while I purr along in my Toyota. Why? How come this is a metric of my self-esteem? Am I being unfair to myself, being upset by this train of thought and itās influence? Consider, please, how much this viewpoint is drilled into us. Look at how often this imagery gets pushed into our faces, and how long thatās been going on. It shouldnāt surprise me, really, that I sometimes feel this way. Though my conscious values oppose this, the lingering thread of this programming has threads into the depths psyche.
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